date : Tuesday, February 22, 2005
time : 6:45 PM

Hais. utterly disappointed with myself. had our semi-finals match today. lost to kranji 2-3. =( probably if we didn't drag our match into 3rd set we would haf completed better. was totally worn out already during the 3rd set. everything wasn't right. hit into the net, halfcourts, cant defend smash properly. haix. just at that moment when we were on a winning streak everyting came tumbling down. history repeats itself as our 3rd singles was the deciding match. she fought hard but we lost. we couldnt blame anyone. the pressure was great. and great thanks to those supporters kranji brought along. come on lah, if u're good u'll win. there's no need fer you to criticise the opponents just to make them lose concentration. if u think that will help ur school to win. u're sore losers! fcuk. if u're not happy with us dun do it discreetly. if u haf the guts scold us loud and clear. what for scold secretly when u walk past us. come on lah, kranji students ain't chickens rite. but perhaps u guys are one.. i shall not deny that fact.

we didnt manage to make it to the finals. managed to control my tears. strong me didnt cry, although my eyes were teary..
i wasn't in the right mood today also. been looking gloomy the whole day. wasn't concentrating at all. duno what was i thinking about. sometimes i ask myself, what am i living for? there seems no purpose in life. i'm taking my o's this year. yet i am not even working up to my standard. my mind's blank whenever i try to study. the barrier. haaving a bio test tmr. wish me the best of luck cause i'm gonna fail. there's no way i can make myself study when i'm feeling so down. haix.

i've slacken alot this yr. dun say that people are cleverer than me. just admit that i've detiorated. i'm no longer performing up to the standard for my maths. got only 28/40 for maths. and 17/25 for english. don't u think i sux? this ain't my grade supposedly for maths. what am i gonna do? been pushing myself but nothing comes out. i'm really tired. let me sleep. rest for as long as i can...
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date : Tuesday, February 22, 2005
time : 6:45 PM

Hais. utterly disappointed with myself. had our semi-finals match today. lost to kranji 2-3. =( probably if we didn't drag our match into 3rd set we would haf completed better. was totally worn out already during the 3rd set. everything wasn't right. hit into the net, halfcourts, cant defend smash properly. haix. just at that moment when we were on a winning streak everyting came tumbling down. history repeats itself as our 3rd singles was the deciding match. she fought hard but we lost. we couldnt blame anyone. the pressure was great. and great thanks to those supporters kranji brought along. come on lah, if u're good u'll win. there's no need fer you to criticise the opponents just to make them lose concentration. if u think that will help ur school to win. u're sore losers! fcuk. if u're not happy with us dun do it discreetly. if u haf the guts scold us loud and clear. what for scold secretly when u walk past us. come on lah, kranji students ain't chickens rite. but perhaps u guys are one.. i shall not deny that fact.

we didnt manage to make it to the finals. managed to control my tears. strong me didnt cry, although my eyes were teary..
i wasn't in the right mood today also. been looking gloomy the whole day. wasn't concentrating at all. duno what was i thinking about. sometimes i ask myself, what am i living for? there seems no purpose in life. i'm taking my o's this year. yet i am not even working up to my standard. my mind's blank whenever i try to study. the barrier. haaving a bio test tmr. wish me the best of luck cause i'm gonna fail. there's no way i can make myself study when i'm feeling so down. haix.

i've slacken alot this yr. dun say that people are cleverer than me. just admit that i've detiorated. i'm no longer performing up to the standard for my maths. got only 28/40 for maths. and 17/25 for english. don't u think i sux? this ain't my grade supposedly for maths. what am i gonna do? been pushing myself but nothing comes out. i'm really tired. let me sleep. rest for as long as i can...
# sugar rush [: